The world of the mind can be very confusing, undoubtedly because we humans are very complicated. Therefore, it is not surprising that many factors contribute to problematic behaviors, thoughts, and feelings, or that "issues" and suffering usually have a history as well as a pattern in your life. Even vague frustrations (like you "should" feel happy but you don't) can be complicated in their evolution.
Getting better often requires a journey with a professional or two. It usually means asking for help. And beginnings are often difficult, especially any beginning that involves the realm of therapy, therapists, and possibly medication. In this kind of journey, the first step usually involves finding a well-trained and knowledgeable professional. In addition, it is important to find someone who is a good listener and who will collaborate with you. You should be generally comfortable interacting with the person you have chosen, and your comfort should be based on your sense that this person embodies all four of the qualities listed above: well-trained, knowledgeable, a good listener, and someone willing to collaborate with you. In addition you should have a sense of being understood, as well as the sense that this person will help you see things that are hard for you to see by yourself.
You might want to meet with several people before you choose one, or you may find the right fit with the first person you meet. Sometimes trusted people in your life can make recommendations about a particular professional, or your primary care doctor may have some names to help you begin this process.
Perhaps I can help?
I am a psychiatrist with specialized training in medications, psychotherapy and psychoanalysis. I evaluate the whole person, from the mental realm to the physical. This includes consideration of medical illnesses and their treatments, brain problems, chemical imbalances, normal and abnormal development, problems of the mind, mental illnesses, traumas, relationship struggles, family & childhood issues, as well as the environmental aspects of life.
Please feel free to explore my site, which I hope will help you on your journey.